Housemanship and Birding

Both are of the same age of about 1 year plus. While both are similar in age, there is a difference between the two.

Sabah has provided me the opportunity for me to travel and bird widely, gaining experience and skills in bird identification. Along the way I have met new people with similar interest. The 'sports' is already becoming an obsession. Every free time in the early morning or late evening is spent to bird. With the shift system applied to house officers, birding opportunities have become even more abundant. My lifer list is now nearly at 250.

What about being a doctor, my true 'career', the job where I should put my dedication in making myself a better doctor? This is my 4th posting. I will be moving to my 5th if my department lets me. After 1 year plus, working as a doctor, I must admit that my skills and knowledge are not on par or to the level which I am satisfied. Sure, during the months of work I have gained experience and knowledge but honestly it is still inadequate in my humble opinion. Sure the shift system has given me a lot of free time for myself and sleep, but in the long run, it has made me more calculative and pampered. Within weeks after the implementation of the shift system I have forgotten the lethargy accompanying a busy oncall and to work the next day til end of office hours. I am honestly ashamed with my MOs whom are still obligated and dedicated to continue their work even being post-call.

Shift system is not all that bad or for birding. Perhaps I should capitalize with the extra free hours. Some of the things possible now are:
- Study for MRCP, MRCS or other exams
- Attend OTs or minor OTs to gain more hands-on experience
- Attach to pediatric surgery activities, my supposedly main interest in medicine.
- Read more on my spiritual aspects of life and other non-medical (and birding) aspects.


So where is my direction in my life career? Birds or Human lives?

Failure to change now would only lead to the detriment of my future patients. Islam demands the best in our work. To be the best requires realization and hard work as well as tawakal. Not solely the latter.

Shift System in Surgery

The government calls it Flexi-schedule or some shit.

But it's still the shift system.

We've started today.

In theory surgical department shifts sounds pretty good.

Work like usual:
Weekdays: 7am to 5pm (am shift), 4pm to 8am (night shift), then day off for night shift to return to work the next day.
Weekends: 7 am to 12 pm (am shift), 11 am to 8am (night shift), then day off again.


The way the number of HOs are arranged is such that everyone will work in the morning except for those in the night shift. So its basically the same as before only that night shift or 'oncalls' don't have to come in the morning and they get a day off the next day. Quite neat ;)

Only that now weekends we'd havta stay til 12 pm and not leave earlier when our jobs done. But that's no biggie.

I'm looking forward to the shift system, at least in Surgery as it frees up a lot of free time though not much change where birding is concerned but we'll see :)

I'll be doing night shift tomorrow. Am will be birding time nyehehe

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Death on Table and Trauma Alert

Retrospective entry, 24 September 2011.

Final peds surgery oncall today:

1. Death on table

- Day 5, term kid had a bowel perf. He was unstable from the go. Peds medical team insisted the surgical team went in despite not optimally stabilized. So we went in. BP crashed despite on full blast inotropes. CPR initiated. We all knew the baby won't leave the table alive. We closed him up. poor boy expired. Blame game begins.

2. 3 Neurosurgical admissions

- All 3 kids had some sort of fall and bang on the head. Admitted for observation. On admission all were normal active kiddies. Too bad the last one came in at 3 am.

3. Trauma alert

- Before that 3 am admission, I was on my way to sleep at ~12am. Then came the unusual trauma alert which I have never heard before. I ignored it and shut my eyes. The trauma alert was called the second time summoning my MO oncall that night. Shit, I said. It means there's a dying kid in casualty. I went down pronto and attended to a pale looking kid with a distended abdomen. He had a tractor backhoe fell on his tummy. Intra-ab injury. He needs blood. I went up - down for the blood. Scan later showed Liver and splenic laceration. Can't go in for this case as opening the kid up might distrupt the clots causing a tamponade effect on the injured liver. Opening him would cause him to bleed more...

4. Intestinal obstruction and excuse to not go too work :)

- Another admission at 6am. My perfect excuse to not go to work at SMC side :D Kid had an intestinal obstruction. History of gastrostomy for a stomach volvolus. Fortunately he was stable enough. Then followed peds surgery rounds.

Damn, I really wanna do peds surgery...

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Kuli

Our system in the medical field in Malaysia is of total hierarchical dominance. HOD's words are final, and housemen are dogs.

Nope. You can't question what you are asked to do. You must do it. It must be done. Specialist orders the MO to get it done, MO orders HO to get it done. Not getting things done will get the MO screwed and will get the HO screwed by the MO.

Some things that are requested are so absurd that the houseman's job is practically suicidal ie. requesting an URGENT MRI that is NOT INDICATED. The houseman will definitely get screwed by the radiologist.

That's the houseman situation: lose - lose. He gets screwed up and down, front and back.

Sure you can speak up and speak up your mind. But unfortunately we live in a system where questioning your superiors might be disrespectful and outright RUDE.

What you say doesn't matter.

In meetings, houseman gets screwed left and right and asked to pay for fines (denda saman) they don't deserve, "Apa boley buat? Bayar sajalah"

Then an angel (a special specialist) speaks up on behalf of houseman saying that we don't deserve this shit. We should stand up for ourselves.

"You guys are doctors for God's sake! Leaders!"

I smell the wind of change.

I'm not going to start rebelling. But perhaps the next generation of MOs and Specialist can change the system where we really do work as a team. Where opinions of team members matters! Where working might actually be fun and motivating!

Because this life of kuli is certainly demotivating. I hate my job for this reason. But I am not giving up on it yet. Hopefully I'll be a part of the tide of change that will be sweeping the old ways.

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Rooftop Adventures

Sometimes you just need to explore a bit of your hospital and you'll find secret passageways to wonders beyond =D


Welcome to Rooftop of Sabah's Women and Children Hospital, or Hospital Likas.

Where people come to chill, smoke or in our case, take a few pics.






Thanks to Nadhir for acquiring the KEY.

(This is after working hours folks. Dont ponteng-ponteng. We are good boys :D )

IIUM Reunion in KK (2 July 2011)

Prof Nasaruddin came down to see his kid here in Kota Kinabalu while he and his gang did their electives here. So we decided to hava little get together at a local halal seafood restaurant (No Pork Served!)

Yes, I'm the usual loyalist, always feeling attached to something I once belong too. It was nice to see my fellow graduates dining together here far from home (except for Jai), gathered again for a temporary reunion. There's a lot of us I realized and we are all scattered all across the country, east or west side. Aishah, Fateha and Saiful Ehsan were absent here, along with some of our IIUM medical officers in KK.

All of us have one thing in common: we carry the name of our university we came from, the university that trained us to become who we are today. I guess its true when they say we reflect how our uni had trained us. I am proud that I came from IIUM and I intend to continue to set a good reflection of our university, and hopefully do it justice for all the training and teaching I have received from our teachers. I hope others feel the same way too.

It was nice to catch-up with Prof whom we noticed have lost quite alot of weight (diet ka?). He told us that rarely will you ever see one table filled with Malay Muslim doctors during his time. He is happy that times has changed for the better and hopefully more improvement will come from this.

After lobsters and buttered prawns, we parted ways. Insyallah that might come another day when another reunion will occur, perhaps in the west, in the East Coast, and this time we have changed into different persons.

Weekend Offs - Off

"Weekend off is a privilege, not a right"
Dr Suthagar, O&G Medical Officer (dunno why this quote stuck)

Orthopedics department was the latest department to have it's weekend off taken off following O&G, Pediatrics, Surgery (I'm not so sure about internal medicine). Reason given by Mr Nahulan, the Orthopedics head of department was that the replacing houseman (those covering patients on Sunday) could not perform well enough to present their cases. He feels that continuity is needed, in other words, the same houseman who had been taking care of the patient should be around to present the case when the MO or specialist does rounds.

It seems that the competence of housemen are in question. Despite having the numbers (even when halved, the current numbers still exceeded the amount of HOs that had to cover a ward a few years back) we still could not meet up to the expectation of our superiors. Why is that?

I refuse to believe that housemen are incompetent. Such labels are a disgrace after going through the trainings we had from high school to med school.

So what went wrong?

I believe it all comes back to attitude. I believe there is a lack of will for self-improvement. We took things for granted hoping that we could cover our tracks and hoping still that nobody finds out. There's no motivation performing better than what we could. As long as the job is done, nothing else matters.

Sadly this had to happen. With the weekend-offs gone, its back to 7 days a week work. No more early morning birding, no more over-time weekend sleep, no more weekend exercises, no more proper breakfast... In short, that's the end of 1 day of normal life.

The only thing to look forward to is that at least it's half day of work (although this might extend to the evening as in the case of O&G or if there happened to be additional unfinished work). At least its better than nothing.

I suppose we deserved what we got. Perhaps its for the best.

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