We Need Guidance, Please

What we don't need are insults. We just need guidance. One of my favourite teacher was Pang Chee Hoong, physician whom took care of male medical acute and HDU 1 during my time there. And that was when I learned how to put in the central lines.

I was in my 5th posting and I still haven't done any central lines yet! But Dr Pang showed me the way and now I'm more confident. I came out of medical with almost 10 central lines and quite a few on my own with assistance from nurses.

Coming to anesthesiology, CVL are mostly done by MOs in the OT. I assume that even they want that bit of practice.

Last night though I had my chance of putting in 2 on my own. But shit did I panic when I realized that I haven't pulled out the guide-wire when I inserted the triple lumen! My heart pounded like hell and I thought I would end up in IJN instead of the poor patient with the thyroid storm.

Fortunately the wire was still there when I pulled out the triple lumen. Booyah! Still a good flow!

Setting up central lines is one of my favourite procedures as a houseman. Haven't tried it on peds yet but would like the experience. Hell I still need the practice to set up regular lines in peds. Still suck at it. Learning from them experienced nurses is not a bad thing. I still have much to learn. As always.

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Tips to CVL insertion:

- Success is assured when patient and your position is correct. Failure is guaranteed when positioning and exposure is sub-optimal.

- Always have help around.

- The hardest part is getting the needle in the vein. Once that's done, the rest is a breeze.

- Know the potential complications.

- I know consent is important in the event of complications, but most of our folks, if we explain to them in details regarding the possible complications of CVLs, they would consult the whole kampung before agreeing. From Dr Pang: Do first, ask later. Save life first. (Up to you which you want to believe).

- Always pull out the guidewire first!!! Having a guidewire in the heart is equivalent to putting in wrong group match to a patient.

Have fun!

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Interlude

I'm writing way too much on O&G!

I promise Pediatric experience next!

(bukan ada orang baca pong)

O&G Revisit: The Bully

I had an MO (name with held but you'd know whom I'm talking about). He was a bully.

He would deliberately find excuse to 'kenakan' new HOs in the department (seriously!). His mood is like a playground see-saw, happy at one spectrum and a nuclear bomb at the other! He even admitted his mood swings and sometimes apologized for it.

My first incident with him was when I had my case note flung to the floor in PAC. I think he was angry with me for not writing well (I don't really remember now).

My second, when I scrubbed up for an emergency C-sec and I couldn't get through to the Peds MO oncall for standby. Baby came out flat, blue alert was called and he was furious with me throughout the whole closing of the patient's ab.

I've seen him calling up HOs for not filling in certain forms or writing in a style he didn't like. There was a time he told us he would find faults in the case note just so that he could find an excuse to scold a HO.

Well that was the worst of him.


On the bright side, after the blue-alert event, he did tell me nicely what I did wrong after I approached him and told him how sorry I am and that it was a mistake. He advised me not to take it personally as he just can't control himself at times and to learn from my mistakes.

He also thought some stuff in the labor room like what to look for in the CTG and during vaginal exams.

During my last few days of O&G, he gave me a chance to do a C-sec with him thus getting a very much needed C-sec performance in my logbook.
 

Much of the scoldings and the bullyings though unwarranted most times do sometimes provide the much needed eye-opener. And bad guys are not always bad (though they may be on the bad side of the spectrum).

He is still in the department and from what I hear from other HOs he is still the time-bomb he was when I was in O&G. But I do hope he does well and cool down a bit.

Well that's life.


Tips: Ambil yang baik, buang yang buruk, bersyukur.

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ps: I am so glad to be out of that department! =)

Final Posting: Anesthesiology

I remembered Prof Arif, my dear, Anesthesiologist lecturer in IIUM telling us how we should advise patient's going for op to pray as when the patient sleeps, it might be his last.

Undergoing anesthesiology rotation, I now can appreciate that anesthesiology is not a department where the anesthetist just 'intubate and extubate' or 'spinal' and just sit around in between.

Putting patient's to death with medications , maintaining airways and heart regulations while the patient is unaware, and reversing them back to life. Ventilator bag and machine replaces the patient's lungs, manipulation of his heart comes as easily with a push of the syringe plunger with the correct drug at the correct dosage.

My first impression of the anesthetist are that they control life itself!

Of course all this requires extensive knowledge on physiology and pharmacology to master this unique discipline. Just into my second month, I see that things do go wrong and shit happens and when it does, the patient's life can just slip from your fingers, and losing a patient on table is a horrible feeling when the patient (and family members) have entrusted you to keep him safe while surgery is on-going.

Things go wrong when you least expect them, ASA I patients, supposedly those undergoing short and routine procedures (I&D, CMR,  D&C).

Being put under is just damn scary. Putting someone under is just as scary. I have done a few successful intubations (20 is still considered few), and each time I still pray and hope that nothing goes wrong while I look for that vocal cords, epiglottis and put the tube in. This is by far the scariest procedures that I have to perform as a house officer.

Going through anesthesiology for 2 weeks in med school and 4 months as a HO is a very big gap. But that 2 weeks thought me a lot. Getting consent, RSI and inductions, MALESSS, holding a face mask properly and assembling the mask-valve-bag. And most important, the need to pray that things do not go wrong and the appreciation that life only belongs to Him and He is the controller of all life.


Lessons and Tips:

* It's OK to not be able to intubate. It's lethal to not being able to VENTILATE.
* MALESSS before intubating. It's a must!
* Label your medications.
* Check and check and check your blood products before giving them.
* Do NOT take things for granted.
* Remember that life is in GOD's hands. You are not god.

On the Table

I awake, only to die on the table
Pushed by bodies able
Through the door to the unknown
On my journey alone


Spark to those in need
Aiding best to those diseased
I greet him at the door
To push across the marble floor


Squeaky wheels turn
My inside burns
Fear of darkness
In a room brightest


My preparations complete
Although its no guarantee
My weapons to heal
Are those that might also kill


I am resigned to fate
This might just be my death bed
Again I'm put to sleep
I might never wake...



Life then lands
His lungs in my hands
Heart beats on screen
First cut done clean


He lies still
As his insides revealed
Blood pours then restored
How long can this mortal body endure?


'Wake up' I hear
What's far sounds so near
My eyes open I see
Life, has been given back to me

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