Final Posting: Anesthesiology

I remembered Prof Arif, my dear, Anesthesiologist lecturer in IIUM telling us how we should advise patient's going for op to pray as when the patient sleeps, it might be his last.

Undergoing anesthesiology rotation, I now can appreciate that anesthesiology is not a department where the anesthetist just 'intubate and extubate' or 'spinal' and just sit around in between.

Putting patient's to death with medications , maintaining airways and heart regulations while the patient is unaware, and reversing them back to life. Ventilator bag and machine replaces the patient's lungs, manipulation of his heart comes as easily with a push of the syringe plunger with the correct drug at the correct dosage.

My first impression of the anesthetist are that they control life itself!

Of course all this requires extensive knowledge on physiology and pharmacology to master this unique discipline. Just into my second month, I see that things do go wrong and shit happens and when it does, the patient's life can just slip from your fingers, and losing a patient on table is a horrible feeling when the patient (and family members) have entrusted you to keep him safe while surgery is on-going.

Things go wrong when you least expect them, ASA I patients, supposedly those undergoing short and routine procedures (I&D, CMR,  D&C).

Being put under is just damn scary. Putting someone under is just as scary. I have done a few successful intubations (20 is still considered few), and each time I still pray and hope that nothing goes wrong while I look for that vocal cords, epiglottis and put the tube in. This is by far the scariest procedures that I have to perform as a house officer.

Going through anesthesiology for 2 weeks in med school and 4 months as a HO is a very big gap. But that 2 weeks thought me a lot. Getting consent, RSI and inductions, MALESSS, holding a face mask properly and assembling the mask-valve-bag. And most important, the need to pray that things do not go wrong and the appreciation that life only belongs to Him and He is the controller of all life.


Lessons and Tips:

* It's OK to not be able to intubate. It's lethal to not being able to VENTILATE.
* MALESSS before intubating. It's a must!
* Label your medications.
* Check and check and check your blood products before giving them.
* Do NOT take things for granted.
* Remember that life is in GOD's hands. You are not god.